Wednesday, November 4, 2009

This Isn't Gonna Be Pretty

I'm doing this Blog for me. I've discovered that I enjoy to write. I'm going to write about whatever I see fit.

Right now, I'm going to use my blog to vent.

I've ready many a blog in my day (sarcasm) and some people it seems only blog about the happy stuff. Well, I'm not happy right now. Sorry reader. You may not want to continue.

Being happy all the time, having a perfect life, it isn't real. Right?

I hate it when you are talking to someone...sharing an opinion or thought...and they gave you an incredulous look in response to what you are saying. The look says, "Oh my gosh, you idiot." This happened to me. What is even more frustrating is that this isn't the first time this person has looked at me this incredulously!

You know what I just thought of? That person is the idiot! That person is the idiot for only being able to respond with an incredulous look as opposed to voicing a differing opinion and attempting to hold an intelligent conversation.

Can ya tell I'm a wee bit frustrated?

I'm also, while I'm at it, gonna open myself up for some criticism; but, I privately vowed in my head that if and when I started blogging, I really was going to "keep it real." The good, the bad and the ugly.

Sorry reader.

But, I think knowing that someone else out there goes through similar stuff, that you're not the only one whose life isn't all wine and roses, helps. And, if just one person reads this, who also lives in reality and feels like their life isn't all wine and roses and they can relate to me, well, hopefully I've made them feel a little bit better. It's always nice to know you're not alone and there's someone else out there going through stuff.

Now I'm chickening out.

Dave and I got in a fight and he went to bed mad at me.

Fights suck.

I think sometimes marriage sucks...and I think everyone who is married or in a long term relationship, knows that it sucks sometimes. Just a small percentage of the time. A minute percentage of the time. People don't need to go freaking out that I'm saying this. I'm just being realistic.

Will everything get worked out? Of course! *sigh* Sometimes it's just the getting there that sucks, too.

It really, really, sucks that emotions get the best of people some times, too.

So, between being looked at like I was an idiot and the marital bliss this evening (sarcasm again) I'm wide awake and bitter at 10:20 P.M. when I should be in bed.

I just wish that I was perfect and didn't let emotions get the best of me...like the person who gave me the incredulous look.

Humph!

5 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear you had a bit of a tiff. I totally know where you are coming from! You will both move on and work it out though, its when you stop moving on and working things out it gets to be a problem. Tim & both have gone to bed mad at each other for one reason or another. Obviously we don't subscribe to the "never go to bed mad" mentality. We wake up a little bit clearer and more willing to talk with out blowing up at each other so for us it works.

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  2. Yeah, I give a huge KUDOS and my favorite pair of socks to a couple who can "never go to bed mad!" So easier said than done and sometimes, like you said, it's for the better.

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  3. Yep, it is when you stop trying to work through the differences, for whatever reason (and I'm sure the psychologist in you can think of several) that a problem can grow bigger and bigger--especially if it is ignored for years. But really, once Dave realizes that you are always right, your problems will all be solved. Paul is pretty good about this, but every now and then he slips . . .

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  4. I think your Mom is right. And No you are not an Idiot, you should tell that person they are an idiot. (unless it is your boss. LOL!)

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  5. No kidding! Dave just needs to realize that I'm always right and maybe that little piece of information coming from his mother-in-law will help! Lol Just kidding!

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